Lately I've been feeling really tired and stressed. I just feel like all the mental planning and thinking related to the store has been such a drag. Maybe it's my lack of experience in retail and the fashion industry that's gotten me all lost. The boutique has been open for almost 1.5 years now and I've been running it full-time for almost one year. Honestly this one year has felt more like three to four years to me. Sometimes I just want to take a break, a day off, from it all so I can relax my mind. But seriously, who's gonna do all the work when I'm gone, right. I'm always so worried about the store, it's become such a mental issue. For all the time I'm awake, I'm constantly thinking about the store. I can now truly understand what it feels like when other business people say that owning your business is a lot of work. Because it is!
During this past year, I always feel like I'm not doing well enough. The store is so far off from what I had envisioned. Sometimes when people hear my story, they think that I'm doing pretty well for a new business. Despite all the comfort, the business is just not up to par with my standard and everything is just happening too slowly. Then again, I am super lazy...and...I wouldn't have the guts or the resources to grow it fast. So yeah, most of the time I'm just angry with myself. I spend so much time thinking, yet I spend very little time executing. There's always so much to do and when I think about how much there is to be done, I always put it off by saying "I'll do it later". Of course, nothing gets done in the end (if school has taught me something...it's really how to put off homework until the last minute...translating to my status quo).
It's ironic how I started off by saying I need a break and ended off by saying I need to work harder. Will my hard work truly pay off though in the end? Most small businesses fail within 5 years of starting. I want to say that I hope I won't be one of them, but hope is such a light word...we can't just hope, we need to do everything we can to make sure that we are not. Everyday I drive down the same roads and I see new businesses come and go within months! It's really scary to see people pour their life savings into something and failing in the end. What's the problem though? Is it just that people are not working hard enough? Is it an external factor? Sometimes I really wonder what's the truth behind it all. Based on my one year experience, all I know now is that I gotta work hard, work right, play it safe and think smart. Everything changes with time and you need to evolve with it.
Bag from Prada
Shoes from Giuseppe Zanotti